Unknown Snehithan

Whenever I started believing in some reality suddenly everything changes into an illusion. Each and every time I tried to believe in the reality where I smile a bit but suddenly everything goes for a toss. I am tired, I am tired of seeking hope, tired of making them understand me, tired of breathing... I gave everything I had, atleast let the universe make me sleep forever. I am tired of ...

I was pure once, but now I am not. She is the best that I am Very sure of, nothing excites me more than the feeling of me beIng the reason for her happiness. She Deserves sometHing or someone pure as I was but the reality is pure is rare these daYs. If I cAn't be the one then who can it be? Who can love her the way I do? Who can feel the way I do? Who can treat her the way I do? Nobody can be me, no one can love her as much as I do. The things I did in Past are now taking me away from heR, whatever happens, I will go to her but will she be there, why should she be there when I already ruined It? But can't we build ourselves back from the ruins? She can't stay that long or she can't stay that strong? I shouldn't ask her, I shouldn't expect anYthing from her. She is already beyond my dreams, she is already a fairy tale that is so happening in my life, in my reality now. What is she? Trust? Faith? Loyalty? Love? Life? I am sure of one thing, she is someone who dese...